I’m starting to experience the luxury of moderation. By keeping up with my No Zero Year goals, I’ve gotten to the point where I can take a day off from one hobby and free up space to pursue another. That’s a considerable change from clinging to a goal so hard that I resent myself for taking a day off to the point of stressing myself out and quitting. No other methodology has suited me this well. I’ve tried a schedule with different set days and times for each activity, but I’ll inevitably miss one day and another until I get frustrated and throw the whole routine out of the window. A basic New Year resolution doesn’t wield enough psychology to guide me past the “yea, I should be doing that, but I’m not” stage.
No Zero is just enough structure to get me started. Getting started is all I needed. Now that I have momentum and my goals have turned into habits, the whole process feels less like a chore and more like a luxury. I don’t have to prompt myself to do something because that now feels like a luxury.
Today’s wind chill was in the 20’s. I still felt the euphoria of my breakthrough with Maximas from yesterday. After watching horse videos on YouTube, I felt the old familiar guilt stir in my mind. I wondered if I should force myself to drive to the stable and do something with Maximas. Then I remembered that I hadn’t written any short stories in a few days. I realized that letting myself take a day off from horseback riding would give me the time I needed to write! I’ve always been the kind of person to fasten onto something so tight that it hurts. I needed this system to help me relax and prevent burnout.
I’m becoming more well-rounded and fulfilled.
Besides writing a short story, I also practiced the guitar while watching T.V. with my husband. It’s becoming so easy to slide my hobbies into my day. I ran scales for a couple of episodes. I completely forgot how to play Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star from memory, but I could play Auld Lang Syne! While I was plucking notes to try and remember Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star, I began to freestyle some melodies. It’s a cool feeling to be confident enough to feel the music and let it flow. My husband has been inspired by all of my hobbying and started to learn how to use Ableton Music Software. I told him I might have some guitar music for him to use soon!